2016, the Richter Scale of a Year

Twenty sixteen. Two thousand and sixteen. Two zero one six. 

They all mean the same of course, but this year was far from the same as any other. Things evolved, attitudes changed and now I’d go as far as saying I’ve become more of an ‘adult’. Quitting and moving on, taking new ideas in my stride and becoming a more open-minded person because of it. So I guess the idea here, or so I believe is that I look back at the ups and downs over this past year and tell you how I’ll change; well I guess I could dwell on the past but maybe if I just outline a few things that I think were important ‘eureka’ or turning point moments and then give them a rating on the richter scale. Now for anyone (like me) who has little or no knowledge of earthquakes and the richter scale, a small description call it a lesson in high school geography on this joyous topic. Courtesy of the internet.

P.S. If you do feel that you’re a whizz on this kind of stuff feel free to skip the diagram below 

The Richter Scale – Measuring the Magnitude of Earthquakes

All I’m saying is that if its 8 or more then that moment was pretty destructive, if you’ll let me, now I shall begin by picking 4 moments that stood out across the entirety of twenty sixteen. 

No. 1: Richter scale rating 6

So it was mid March and I guess it would have been around Easter time, things were getting pretty low and destructive emotionally. Like the diagram explains this rating ‘may cause major damage in populated areas’ and mentally it was exactly that, it was a dark time I felt alone, troubled and as though things were about to go downhill for the rest of the year. At the time I was seeing the doctor for feeling depressed, low and completely disfuntional to the rest of society, from here like every other similar story I was waiting listed and so the weeks past, I saw the doctor fortnightly. However, things gradually seemed to brighten up maybe it was the weather, I’ll never know for sure but what I will say is that eventually when I was actually referred and made it to the top of that what seems never ending list I was OK. The call arrived, it was a happy moment, when I could think about turning down the offer and me being me thinking of others who would benefit from the help which is so hugely needed.

No. 2: Richter scale rating 2

Moving forward chronologically, this time it was May (my birthday month) and oddly enough it was my birthday that is the focus of this moment. To be a bit more brief and not explain the presents that I had which may or may not have included money, clothes and deodorant… cheeky! It was a doubled birthday meal come farewell food for a girl at work, I was allowed to be happy because it was now my role for the taking but sadly she wasn’t so lucky. Overviewing that night we had American food, fries, burgers and drinks courtesouly flowing. The relaxation of the night and being able to properly let go within myself was probably the stand-out feature of this moment.

No.3: Richter scale rating 10 (Can totally destroy, not for the faint hearted)

The final point which I have chosen is a little personal, deep with floods of meaning. October would be the month, I’m sure of it because this gave me a fright more than halloween ever could or has. It was a Thursday evening around eight and I was out, alone just walking, freeing my head from a particularly anxiety filled day, cautiously breathing in the icy, mist filled air trying to desperately feel calmed and back to a more normal, rational state of mind. Now there’s a point of the walk where I come across a ledge, overlooking a huge field and below rocks are surrounding with no way of making it down. About 14 feet of pure air, free open space unoccupied and most definitely untouched. I won’t put it into words because I do not in any way want to think that within me is the capability of doing something that seems only acceptable in well… nowhere. What I will say is change happened and now I begin to picture that moment every time I’m low, lost or feeling worthless to anyone, simply because the adrenaline and fighting voice in my mind just wants to move faster, achieve greater and feel stronger than it ever has before. In no way am I trying to scare or put a downer on anyone’s new year, the point I am on the grasp of here is sometimes you have to hit new lows before you ever feel high or push your self to believe in you once again. 

Here is my proposition and fight talk for you! Never ever doubt your beliefs or completely change who you are just because someone else is telling you to do so, even if they go as far as getting into your head and altering your ‘normal’. So looking ahead maybe you could do the whole ‘new year, new you’ just make sure that it’s because you want it or need to and you can almost never be far from greatness. 

Liam OUT! 

Happy New Year and best wishes, smile and think about my propositon for a while, now stop ✋ (Don’t overthink!)

2017 awaits us.

The 25th of December

The mood is right, the spirits up, we’re here tonight… and that’s enough.

Apparently or so I’m told by the display of Christmas trees, playing of songs and rush of shoppers it’s Christmas! But I’m sure this is just a sign of age and the fact that work has killed any chances I have of feeling festive. Forget about that bitter feeling though and I guess like many others I’ll be embracing Christmas with every last mince pie and chocolate assortment I can get my filthy little hands on. He says in a naive tone.

Yes Christmas is definitely, for me anyway, mostly about the food and how you’ll have at least one box of chocolates that you’ve never seen or heard of before. That. Is. Christmas.

Now by the array of previous posts about feeling and meaning I’m pretty sure the only thing I have to say here is enjoy the day, whether you celebrate or not, because for many it only goes down from here think of it as the peak point. The point where for most you’re at the highest place you’ve been all year but take this moment to reflect and say ‘Yes, yes I know what I’m going to do next year to feel like this every day!’. And so come forth New Years Resolutions and promises that we’ll try to make to ourselves about how we can change. How about instead of changing, you embrace the achievements so far and become a better version of yourself? For at least a few days anyway we can forget about the gym, staying fit, being productive and growing and just live it out. Think of it as therapy for the heart, just don’t overload on the food and the New Year should see you through!

Merry Christmas to literally everyone I know, have met or even acknowledged. Now I have to go and be Santa’s little positivity spreading elf by beginning to empty the presents from every little drawer, shelf and chasm that is hidden from sight in my house.

See you on the other side, friends! Goodbye belt! *seductively unfastens belt* *gets finger caught trying* 🙂

 

Liam OUT!

 

 

S.A.D. (ness)

Three words… I love you? Merry Christmas everyone? … What about: seasonal affective disorder?

Firstly a little background as this wasn’t something I’d heard about fully until earlier this year so I’m sure there will be some confused looks if this is completely new to you or just want a quick refresh. Here we go:

Seasonal Affective Disorder or SAD as defined by Mind.org.uk  is a form of depression that is influenced by the change in season and usually occurs as a reaction to change in the weather system or seasonal occurrences. In other words cold weather, dark days and lack of sunlight can actually affect your mental health of course this does also work in reverse whereby summer months have the same impact. Less common but still as ever a big deal.

Hopefully that rids a few lost looks *prays* *quickly checks Mind link*.

Now for the main event: What I am most definitely trying to imply here is that yes it is a week until Christmas, just in case you may not have noticed or forgotten to open all the doors on your advent calendar up until this point. A which point I would like to say to you, I envy you, think of all the little mouthful size chocolates you have to indulge in! Moving away from the chocolate fueled thoughts… Honestly, now take a step back, look around and notice whether there is the chance that anyone you know, have ever known or haven’t spoken to in a while is likely to be alone, feeling low or just needs someone to talk to. Don’t worry I’m not asking you to call up your ex asking if they’re feeling SAD because the obvious answer or so I would like to think would be that yes, yes they are sad, you’re no longer in their life to make them feel less so. Bitter much?

SAD or not SAD? No good person really deserves to be alone especially on the 25th, so I guess you could drop them a text, send them a slightly delayed Christmas card or just make sure that they’re OK. However if that person is after reading the Mind link above, actually SAD it may be best to a) ensure they have the best Christmas ever and b) consult Mind either through the website or giving them a call.

No one will laugh. At least no decent human being anyway.

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all, who am I kidding there’s no way I’ll be able to put down that box of chocolates for even a second, so enjoy!

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Help is only a not-so-complicated diagram away!

Liam OUT!

Other helpful links (order of positive-ness)

Money Motivates

First thought: What if I said you haven’t seen all of me? What if I never tried to meet my full potential? Paranoid? Scared? Gripped? Or just confused by the constant self assessment?

Truthfully we walk past rare cases of preserved, held back shells of talent every day. Some of us just have that fire to keep going and give our all to as much as we can. Alternatively there are others who have ‘failed’ in the system, feel cheated and maybe even left without an asset to their name. How are they supposed to project themselves and achieve some of the minor things each of us carry out each day?

Sure it gives me anxiety thinking ‘what if I am never hugely successful in whatever I do?’ but doesn’t everyone fear that they will struggle to make something of themselves. Nevertheless if you were to actually ask yourself deep within us what it is that defines these morals, it could be a number of things, pushy parents, social created pressure or perceived personal contentment. If anything it should be the latter, wanting to be and to move forward with your own life in order to feel as though you have motivated others to do so in the process sounds positive to me!

On the subject of potential though I guess quality is better than quantity, after all if I was to have a number of jobs that each lasted a month and I never fully felt content with any of them then there was no quality. On the other hand it might just be that one thing that I’m good at, it might not pay the most, it may never be the best job in others eyes but at least you were able to enjoy it, and it kept you from feeling unhappy and lacking fulfillment. To me that seems obvious but actually getting this through to your brain and instincts is sometimes a little more difficult than you can imagine, after all the majority are likely to choose the career path that pays more.

In blatant terms money motivates.

Changing this and altering others thoughts that’s how we grow and adjust society. Maybe then we wouldn’t see huge numbers motivation lacking and worry ridden?

 

Liam OUT!

 

 

 

Chocolate Biscuit Sharing

Shall we begin? No wait let me just have one more chocolate digestive and we’re good, probably not the best example to set but I kind of feel as though I ‘need’ one… like right now.

And so we can begin. *crams last tea dipped finger size bite of biscuit into mouth*

First of all I would like to say a big hello to December because apparently it’s almost Christmas, not that I haven’t opened about 4 doors of my advent already. Honestly though it was great when I was about six and you can quite easily ask for every toy advertised on the kids channel but now it can be so awkward trying to find something decent and avoid getting socks and deodorant on Christmas day. But in actual fact in this post I’m not planning on ripping apart the big day and overthinking the whole ‘meaning of Christmas’ all that I will say is that it is definitely not religious anymore, more than Easter is about the resurrection and not getting a dozen chocolate eggs to keep you going throughout exam period. It’s sad but to me it’s more about the fact that the government, businesses and pretty much everyone acknowledges the idea of family, having time off and celebrating with each other. Along with the other subtle messages like ‘keep warm for the winter and eat a GOOD box of chocolates’ then there’s ‘lets play a game I’ll pull this end of the party hat/ worthless junk filled ‘toy’, you pull the other whoever wins gets to tell the joke written by scrooge himself whilst attempting to act out A Christmas Carol with charades’. Literally you could not even dream this stuff up but still the thought that this is embraced by everyone and we can all have a good time together is great.

On the other hand I do also have morals and think that giving something to those who don’t have anything is a sound idea. As always it is difficult to decide which charity or individuals to give to, do I help the homeless? Should I support orphans? Or is there a way I can better those less fortunate in developing countries? I guess you just have to go with your heart and say this year for example, I feel as though I was really struck by the seer amount of homeless people sleeping on the streets and think that they should be given a chance to build themselves into society and live a little more luxuriously even if that does mean that they’ll be having a Christmas sandwich on the 25th.

That is how I view Christmas, giving what you can to help out others and not being so frigid thinking that others will do it for you. They won’t!

Continuing the subject of giving and peoples ‘needs’, what if I was to ask how much is it that we actually need in our lives?  (Apologies if this becomes a little too much economics) Speaking in monetary terms is it £100 a month, £10 a day, £7.20 an hour? Something I read alarmed me recently and that was that there’s only a certain quantity that actually we need, after this ceiling we are no longer made happy by what we’re consuming instead I imagine it tends to go the other way. This is why individuals like J K Rowling are so inspiring giving so much in order for others to even have a chance of being on a level where they can support and project themselves as an inspired and self -content individual. Don’t hold me to this but I’m sure I saw somewhere (yes I do a lot of reading mostly the Metro newspaper) that she could be a billionaire but instead decides to donate by giving to those lower down in the society created hierarchy, sadly I’m not close enough to that bottom. Most definitely not taking away from the fact that this makes her a truly selfless person.

To give a little closure to this topic, my subtle but very prominent message would be to give what you can and have a deserving rest with the fattest selection of chocolates man could possibly create this Christmas – sharing some of course!

Ho. Ho. Ho.

 

Liam OUT!